I'm bored

# do you type really fast? ¡V yes.. kinda

# does it annoy people who are around you (like in the library)? - I don¡¦t notice

# do you/did you like high school? - *grin* yes. (I¡¦m such a geek, aren¡¦t I?)

# how old are you? - 16

# do you know anyone who has the same birthday as you? - yes

# favorite pen color - black

# what word do you constantly misspell when typing? ¡V gaurds

# do you have trees in your yard? ¡V a few in my backyard

# name one comedian that everyone thinks is funny but you absolutely cannot stand ¡V uhh.. me. HAHAHAHA, see what I mean?

# name one director you hate and tell why ¡V don¡¦t kno any

# do you like tim burton? ¡V who dat?

# what annoys you more than anything? ¡V eer, immaturity

# tell me about the weirdest pair of socks you own ¡V this one with duckies with umbrellas.

# if you woke up tomorrow morning as the opposite sex, what would you do first? ¡V other than check if I have clothes on?

# did you read fear street books? ¡V I actually did, but I found it surprisingly stupid

# how about sweet valley high? ¡V haha, another yes

# babysitter's club? the boxcar children? ¡V yes to both

# goosebumps? - sure

# favorite show on nickelodeon (can be from the late 80's/early 90's when nick was  good) ¡V no thank you, I don¡¦t watch cartoons

# did you watch are you afraid of the dark? ¡V uh.. huh?

# did zeebo the clown scare you? ¡V no clue who that is

# where do you vacation every summer? ¡V lets see, las vegas, los angelas, Taiwan, Indonesia, tahoe, Canada, Scotland, and various other places

# do you like the beach? - sure

# do you tan or burn easily? ¡V yes, cuz I¡¦m too hot

# do you make up your own words and lingo? if so tell me about it ¡V um, boingers?

# do you eat lots of tv dinners? ¡V hell yea, microvable food all the way

# favorite hot pocket flavor - dunno

# if you could make one celebrity magically disappear, who would it be? ¡V me, AHAHAHAHA

# how is life treating you? ¡V how¡¦s life treating the chicken in the farm? Like hell I tell you, like hell.

# do people like you? ¡V I can¡¦t say, since I get a feeling a lot of ppl probably hate my guts and just don¡¦t want to tell me. Haha

# what do you think it is that makes the "popular" people popular? ¡V moolah and looks

# what do you wear the most: jeans, cords, dickies, khakis, skirts, or shorts? - jeans

# are you using a pc or mac? ¡V pc

# do you like chunky peanut butter? ¡V no, not at all

# what amazes you about the opposite sex? ¡V uhhh, their complete insensitivity

# are you in love with anyone? ¡V hell no

# do you like anyone? ¡V read above answer

# if so, who ¡V uh huh..

# why do you like them/why are you in love with them? ¡V what kind of question is that? If u like someone, u should like them for everything, for their lil habits, for the things that drive u mad and the things that u find cute, for every wrong they¡¦ve done and also every right. You like/love someone for the things you know and for all the more that you want to find out.

# favorite cereal ¡V cocoa puffs

# name a movie that makes you cry ¡V Lion king, first and last movie I¡¦ve ever cried at

# what's something you like about the opposite sex, physically, that your friends think is odd? - *thinks* their saggy pants

# is it true that only the good die young? - no

# if so, are you going to live forever or die soon? ¡V I¡¦m dying young, but not cuz I¡¦m good.

# do you live for today? ¡V no, I live for yesterday and for tomorrow

# how fast can you run? ¡V no -___-

# favorite band from the 60's/70's ¡V from when?

# have any of your friends had kids as teenagers? ¡V gods no

# did they finish high school? -

# favorite 80's television show - :blinks:

# were you even born in the 80's? - sure

# what year? - 87

# have you ever taught a little kid a curse word? - no

# if so which one was it? ¡V no

# do you think little boys are horrendously ill behaved? - yes

# have you ever thrown anything at a moving car? if so, what? ¡V yes, and eraser or something. Sorry tony

# name a villian in a movie that scared you when you were a kid ¡V uuh, none

# have you seen the original friday the thirteenth? - no

# the original chucky? - no

# the original halloween? - no

# what's your favorite channel? ¡V channel? Wat is that?

# what do you say when you stub your toe off of the corner of the coffee table? ¡V uh.. ooow?

# what's the highest thing you've ever jumped off of and landed unharmed? ¡V this rock climbing wall thing

# does it snow where you live? - no

# if yes, do you go sled riding? - sure

# have you ever used anything weird, like a frisbee or a trashcan lid, for a sled? ¡V never gone sled riding in my life

# how many people do you know who were born in november? ¡V five or six

# what month has the most people you know born in it? ¡V april and october

# do holidays make you festive? - sure

# magazines you subscribe to - none

# do you read the supermarket tabloids? - no

# have you ever smashed somebody's halloween pumpkin? ¡V uh, no, but I¡¦ve stuffed gum in ppls doorbells. hahaha

# ever had yours smashed? - no

# do you celebrate christmas? - no

# if not, do you still watch "how the grinch stole christmas" when it comes on television? ¡V no, that is one really stupid movie that I never want to ever see.

# do you think the grinch movie starring jim carrey was a waste of money? ¡V yes, any movie that has an ugly green thing running around is a waste of money

# ever had a hot teacher? - no

# if yes, did you flirt with him/her? ¡V no

# how do you treat people you are attracted to? (this is not a stupid question; some people are immature and are mean to those they like) ¡V I pay more attention to what they are saying. I notice things about them, like when they¡¦re sad or happy. But friends always come before ppl who are pretty ^^

# what do you want for your birthday this year? ¡V a purse. Never had one, but I want one..

# have you ever egged somebody's house? - no

# has someone ever egged yours? - no

# do we all go a little mad sometimes? - yeah

# what pisses you off more than anything in the world? ¡V my mother

# do you still go trick or treating? ¡V yes, free candy, man

# do you believe in santa claus? ¡V uhh, doode, my mom never even told me about santa claus

# have you ever worked in a supermarket? - no

# how about a restaurant? - no

# if yes, do you agree with me when i say that those are the two worst establishments to work in? -

# what color is your bedspread? - white

# do your eyes change colors? - no

# do you believe that we walked on the moon? ¡V yes, ppl who don¡¦t are morons. Get a clue, alright? They¡¦re stupid for being so unbelieving. It¡¦s like, if u can believe in god, why can¡¦t u believe in ppl walking on the moon?

# what's your opinion of the u.s. retaliation in afghanistan? ¡V its crap, but I don¡¦t care

# do you live by yourself? ¡V no, but I should

# have you ever gotten a computer virus? ¡V yes, it sux

# if so, what was it and how did you get rid of it? ¡V don¡¦t kno what it was, but my bro got rid of it

# describe your junior high/middle school gym teacher ¡V yea, just about the same as any other gym teacher

# how do you react when someone is talking to you --up in your face-- and they have really bad breath? ¡V I¡¦ve never noticed that ppl have bad breath

# what was your first date like? ¡V never had one. Oh haha, just kidding, I did. Uhhh, it was okay, it was fun, I had fun ^^

# did you go/are you going to the prom? ¡V yes and yes

# if you've already gone, was it good or bad? explain why ¡V first year, it was okay, I admit I was mean, so it wasn¡¦t great. Second year, I had lots of fun, great date, great dinner, great dance. I loved it, the party afterwards rocked too.

# do you get uneasy when you see a person of a different color than you walking down the same street as you in the middle of the night? ¡V how do I kno they¡¦re a different color when its in the middle of the night?

# if yes, do you think that makes you racist? ¡V noo, why should it? We have a right to be suspicious of random ppl walking about in the middle of the night

# are you a vegetarian? ¡V no way, I hate veggies

# how about vegan? ¡V no clue what that is so probably no

# if no to both, do you think you could be? ¡V huh? noo

# have you ever given up a certain type of food? if so, what was it and why did you do it? ¡V I gave up vegetables cuz I hate it, but then my mom made me eat em ..

# spit out a random song lyric for me. make sure you tell me the name of the song and who sings it! ¡V ¡§I¡¦ve walked so long, I can¡¦t remember, where was my home. The distant faces fade away I¡¦m always on my own. I can show a smile, its not hard to do, I can find the strength to go on, but sometimes I wanna let go of everything.¡¨ You¡¦re not alone by Sakamoto Maya

# who does the chores around your house? ¡V me and my mother

# name one person who annoys you more than anyone else, and tell why ¡V my mother, because I dislike her

# what movie could you watch a million times and never get tired of? ¡V there are many, such as¡K gladiator which I saw fifteen times in a row

# what movie have you watched a million times, and you still laugh at the jokes? ¡V I like sad movies, so I can¡¦t say I remember any

# what movie do you hope you never see again? ¡V Master of disguise. Can you say stoopid?

# have you ever hugged a stuffed animal or pillow and pretended that it was your significant other, or someone you had a crush on, and then someone caught you talking to it, and stroking its soft, fuzzy fur, and laughed at you and told the whole school? ¡V uh, no to everything. I have no significant other

# do you drive? - yea

if so, do you like to drive at night or in the day time? - day

# has anyone ever called you a bitch? - yes

# has anyone ever called you an asshole? ¡V um, no

# are you a bitch/asshole? ¡V I like to say I¡¦m not, but who knows, maybe I am

# what's the first thing you do when you get home from school/work? ¡V take off my contacts and eat

# favorite pop tart flavor ¡V never had any

# do you play any musical instruments? if so, what? ¡V trumpet

# tell me about the best school-related activity you ever took part in ¡V senior ball and homecoming

# have you ever built a snowman? - no

# did you cry when it melted, or when the kid next door knocked its head off with a shovel? - no

# what's your religion? ¡V I was raised to believe in the way of Amanda. I believe in my own religion

# do you try to force it on other people? - no

# do you knock on people's doors at 7 a.m. on saturdays, trying to give them a pamphlet and tell them about the lord, or ask random people at the mall if they¡¦re been saved, yet you think that doesn¡¦t count as forcing religion, you son of a bitch? Uh, no

# what's the best restaurant you've ever eaten at? ¡V Papillon, but the fact that a dish costs forty bucks might add to the flavor

# have you ever been flipping channels late at night and caught a glimpse of some porn on skinemax? - no

# if so, did you watch it? don't say no, i know you did - no

# what's the code word or phrase you and your friends use for the word SEX? ¡V what r u, five? We call it.. lemme think, I think we use¡K SEX maybe??

# is sex an uncomfortable topic for you? - no

# what is the one thing in the world that just looking at it makes you vomit, or come close to it? ¡V watching other ppl vomit

# when other people vomit, does it make you sick? - yes

# do your clothes match? ¡V I try

# what are you wearing right now? ¡V pants, tshirt, sweater

# did you ever have those fisher price roller skates that go over top of your shoes? - no

# did you have a bike with a banana seat? - no

# could you ride it? - no

# have you lived in the same house your entire life? - no

# what?™s the weirdest thing you¡¦ve lived next to? ¡V I love how the question says ¡§thing,¡¨ and I can¡¦t say I know of any

# who is the ugliest person you¡¦ve ever seen? ¡V this girl who had a mental illness. As sad as it is, I find her surprisingly deformed

# do you watch talk shows? - no

# do you think miss cleo is full of shit? - sure

# if not, have you called her and wasted your money, you idiot? - no

# what are your thoughts on keeping animals in captivity? ¡V its not good, but sometimes it can¡¦t be helped.

# what do you think of all the ?œsuperstores??that are popping up everywhere? (super walmart, super k-mart, super target)? ¡V huh?

# what do you think of pop music? ¡V I think its pop music

# tell me something i don?™t know ¡V sailor moon was made for second graders and below

Things are slowing down, getting better. ^^ Haha, that makes me happy. Plus now I"m not so stressed out and I can work hard on my fanfic!

I'm thinking about deleting FM and starting all over. Haha. Cuz I got this one review to my last chapter with suggestions and I agree completely with them. But its really hard to switch everything this far into the fic. I tried writing ch. 8 using the person's advice on making the fic even darker than it was, but >_< if I do that, I can only focus on one couple, not the love triangle. I guess the slave thing doesn't work out. I shouldn't have done that. Maybe I can go back and change it all. -_- agh, what to do.....

Song of the moment: Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata

I really do like this song. I didn't know it was called moonlight sonata until after the movie we watched in Mr. Ha's class, "The Phone." It's this korean ghost movie. Really pretty creepy. A lot of ppl were saying that now everytime they hear this song, they think of the girl, Jin Hee, who played this song. I think, in a way, I do think of the movie, "The phone" when I hear the song, but it's so beautfiful. And plus, its link to the dark sinister movie adds to its appeal in a way. I don't kno, I think its my obessession with angst surfacing again.

I know that lately, everyone is getting pretty stressed out about different things. People are getting each others nerves and everyone is lashing out at one another. I find myself being pulled into this mess and I feel really bad about it. I don't want anyone to be offended by anything I say or do. Whatever I do to offend anyone, I don't mean to. I want everything to be peaceful, without everyone jumping at each others throats. So, I'm sorry if I'm neglecting people. I'm sorry if I'm being rude to people. I'm sorry if I just don't seem to be here. Strangely enough, my life seems to have gotten better, but my personality has gotten worse. My xanga is no longer filled with depressing entries. But I also noticed that in school, I seem to speak out about what I feel more often. I've begun to express what I think of things, good or bad. And I think, in doing that, I have offended a lot of people. So, I'm sorry. ^^

This.. hectic time has made me realize how much better it is to have friends. Sometimes, they annoy you, and sometimes they're not there for you, but in the end, they'll always be your friend. So, kudos to all my friends because you guys are really fantastic. I hope that no matter what happens on April 10th, we won't hold it against each other. That watever happens up to prom, no matter how much we get on each others already frayed nerves, we'll still be friends.

That's all I'm hoping for right now. Let's all clear the slate and have some fun.

Thank you jenny for listening to me when I have problems. I know how much this prom business annoys you. ^^ Just having you listen really means a lot. Thx for being there. Lately, I haven't always been there for you, but I want to be.

Lulu, thx to you also for all the effort you're putting into this and for keeping a smile on your face.

Everyone else, I could cry for all thats going wrong and for all thats going right. I want prom to be a memorable event >_< It's a month away, and people are making such a big deal out of it that it's frustrating. So please, just realize that prom is simply another dance. Friends aren't something I want to lose just for a dance.

After that last post, I sat down and wrote the 7th chapter. It's a lil shorter than all the other chapters, but oh well. ^^ I'm just glad that's out of the way. *grin* I'm so busy lately, so much work. Work overload!! Plus I'm freaking out about schoooooool. Next year is going to kill me. Please please don't come yet. I'm not prepared for college aps.

Plus JP is ruining everyone's lives. I should just not go. Hahaha, that would simplify everything. *sigh* I kinda don't wanna go anymore anyway. >_< Agh, who cares, I don't. Whatever happens, whoever goes, I'm determined to have fun.

No school day before prom! I suppose that's enough to brighten anyone's day. ^^

So far, my schedule for next year is AP english, AP calc, econ, band, physics, finite/discrete. My mom won't let me take AP physics. She says I'll die and then she'll have to kill me cuz if I don't make it into a college I'm not getting off the hook.

My bro is a genius. No joke. I mean, me and my mom wonder how the heck he got into Hopkins. He never had the time to look at his books. Junior year he had swim, ohlone classes in the evenings, Yosac at night, as well as this chinese orchestra thing. And even with this overload of extra stuff, he's still playing basketball constantly and playing computer games everytime I see him. I mean, does this guy not work?? Junior year is supposedly the hardest year and he didn't break a sweat! I'm so envious! When my mom talks about him, its not like she's bragging, he really just doesn't ever do any work. o.O It's simply amazing. He really must be a genius to maintain such high grades. -_- no wonder he said he worked hardest at hopkins, he's never really worked that hard at mission.

I grr at smart ppl. I most definitely did not get brains like my bros. What the heck, what an unfair distribution of genes.